Ok well, this June there is a LOT happening! Today is Kirk and I's 10 month anniversary. It's my father's birthday and my beginning of summer/summer soltice party is on Saturday. But that's all I can remember as of right now. Other things that suck... Kirk can't go anywhere without a cell phone, so that means that he either has to cart his siter everwhere or borrow her cell until he gets one of his own. And that really sucks, oh and he can't be on the phone all summer because of his grades.... so I won't be able to hear his voice that often, well as often as I used to. But iI did see him, yesturday and he kissed me on the cheek twice! And you know, each time there was this tingly feeling in the pit of my stomach... and every other time he kisses me its the same thing. It's really weird and I don't really get it.
~Becca
OK so I have a problem. Kirk and I are going into 8th grade soon and then are headed off to highschool. The problem is, we are going to have to go to different schools. He's already transfered once and can't anymore, but I can. And I want to transfer to the school he'll be going to. But one thing.... most of my ex-boyfriends will proly be going to that school as well. And I mean, I want to be with Kirk, I really do... but I'm afraid of what will happen if I see them again. I mean I've worked so hard to push back all of my pain and sorrow and I'm finally happy. In fact I used to say,
"I have sorrow and pain permanently etched into my eyes."
And when I'm happy, that's not there anymore. What I'm wondering is, will that sorrow and pain be etched in again? That is, if I see them again. I like being happy and more than anything I love being with Kirk. And a different school relationship will be hard. I've done that before and it didn't work out so well. I'm willing to try again if I can't transfer, but I'm also scared that it might not work and I'm gonna lose the love of my life. I don't want that to happen, I don't want my heart broken yet again. It's been in millions of pieces for many, many years. And Kirk helped, he fully mended my heart. It's finally whole and I'm afraid of it being broken again.
~Becca
OK so apparently, Kirk likes to read my blog... kinda weird but oh well. So today was a pretty good day. My sister gave me a full of makeover... I feel like a freakin' barbie doll! And I hate it! She cut my hair and made me wear make-up. She also through clothes at me telling me to put them on. And she made me stand in front of EVERYONE! They all just stared at me in amazement. I was like "what the hell? It's just me." They just kept staring.....
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! My mother is an evil butt tart! She freakin yelled ay me this morning and all I did was answer her question!!!!!!!!!!!
This is how i feel right now!!!!!!!!!!! I am so pissed at her right now! But on a brighter note, I love my boyfriend! I know it's random, but hey, it's true.
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And I am currently talking to my boyfriend's little sister Katie, she can be pretty cool, but at times I just want to slap her! I mean she always goes on the other phone when I'm talking to Kirk. And it annoys the heck outta me! There's also the fact that my teacher Mrs. Jernigan is an evil witch! And you know, she even admitted to being a witch once! I laughed my freakin' butt off! Oh and Anum is so awesome! See cause in science, we have to do weekly Science Article Summaries,
and so Anum is gonna be awesome and let me use her old ones. I know it's cheating, but hey once I get 3 A+'s (I already have one) I won't have to do them anymore! So yea, that was pretty much my day. Oh and at first Anum wasn't gonna give me the SAS, but I got her to do it, by drooping my ears. And yes I can do that, in more wyas than one, I am much like a dog, so if I was on Naruto, i would be part of Kiba's clan! ^-^
Kirk said the cutest and sweetest thing today. I mean like I cried 'cause it was so nice, sweet and loving. He said:
"Just remember, I love you and would never want to replace you. Also, I would never, never do anything to hurt you."
He also held me while I cried. He is such a sweet boyfriend. I love him and never want to lose him.
My parents, just got into, yet, another fight. I hate this! Ever since they started taking classes for their new job, all they ever do is fight!
Hey people, well what can i say? Ummm, I feel like i'm losing my best friend to her new boyfriend. and the stupid thing, im the one who set them up! I hate this! She's the best friend i've ever had and now im losing her!
Ok well today my moronic family came to pay us a visit... and honestly, my family are considered the sane ones. All the rest of my fam... well let's just say NO! If they come, RUN AWAY! Cause they will make you go insane! And to make matters worse, I had writers block most of the day! Can you say suckish! But I did get more of my new story done! Which was awesome! And I didn't go to school today, I was sick... again. But the only ad part about that... I didn't get to see Kirk today. I miss him, but I'll see him on monday. And you know, I'm just glad my crazy grandma didn't come over! YIKES! That would've been bad! Anyway...
~*Becca-Boo*~
